I am overwhelmed!
Let me explain why.
1. I have brand new, amazing walnut-colored laminate floor in my living/dining room area, thanks to my wonderful husband who has spent many hours doing the install on his own. It's been a relatively slow process, as he has just been working at it a few boards at a time whenever he has a spare moment. He is hoping to start and finish the kitchen area tomorrow, but he pulled/strained a muscle in his back yesterday and he's not too sure how well his back will be feeling tomorrow. Installing laminate floor is hard on a body . . . or so he tells me!
2. As a result of this recent renovation project . . . yes, you guessed right, I'm sure . . . my house is in a state of chaos! And this Sunday I am hosting a family birthday party for my son Ty and my older nephew (they share birthdays only a week or so apart); plus, I've got two extra kids here this weekend and if I haven't already mentioned it, my house is in a state of chaos. Oh yeah. I did mention that. But it seems like I'm always mentioning that. Maybe that's just the new Kimmy. Messy, Chaotic Kimmy! Well, the house will be what it's going to be and there's not much I can do about it. Sorry, family!
3. It has been raining. And raining. And raining. As a result, I have not yet planted my straw bale garden, nor planted my straw potatoes. If we don't get some sunshine soon, I'm not sure that I'll have any produce at the end of summer, which is par for the course around here, but this year I was hoping it was going to be different, given the fact that I am trying out a new type of gardening. I will post separately about my straw bale garden later; that is, if I ever get it completed! The bales do require moisture in order to grow things, but really, this is getting ridiculous!
4. On to something more exciting . . . my son, Mitchell, performed in his final band concert of the year this past Wednesday. The band consists of students from approximately 6 surrounding area schools, and he was awarded the Most Outstanding Woodwind Award for a beginner band student in those schools. Despite my efforts to try to discourage him from continuing on in band next year (due to the fact that he doesn't practice!), I think my efforts to do so are futile. They were probably futile all along, but now that he's won this award he wants to continue in band more now than ever before. However, he has decided that he will deviate from the flute half-way through next year and switch to the saxophone. Apparently the fingering is the same for both instruments, so the transition should be pretty easy for him. In any case, his dad and I are very proud of him. Who knew we'd have a flutist in our family?
5. I am getting excited over ministry opportunities that I'm currently involved in. I mentioned a while back that I am part of a BOOK Club at our church . . . it's a club for women that encourages daily Bible reading. Provided that we have enough newcomers to the group in fall, I will be leading a group of women in one of these Clubs! The leader approached me several months ago and asked me to pray about this opportunity and it didn't take long for me to agree to help. I've also had the opportunity to develop a blog devoted to our BOOK Clubs and it's been so cool to watch that all unfold. I have also recently begun to mentor a younger mom in our church. Another ministry that I am fully devoted to is something called The Bridge, which is group consisting of grade 5 and 6 students (mostly from our church) who meet together once a month for socializing and a fun activity. We had our wind-up for the 2009-2010 year tonight and I am looking forward to what next year holds. Since Mitchell will be in grade 6 next year, it will be his last year in this program, but then Ty gets to attend for two years; so, it looks like I've got three more years to help out with this ministry. My current role is that of Coordinator, so I kind of get to oversee everything. It feels like a daunting task, but yet I have such a passion for it that I am encouraged and energized all at once by having the opportunity to be involved in the lives of these kids.
6. Now the sad news, which has left me sobbing inside. I received word this week that effective June 30th, I will no longer have a job at our school. Due to government funding cut-backs, my profession is receiving a huge downsize in our province. Cuts to individual schools were made based on seniority, and since I was the last one hired at our school, I was the first to go. One other colleague has also lost her job. More jobs may be cut down the road. It is very sad. The students who need the extra help are the ones who will suffer as a result of this government decision.
I do have some seniority over other E.A.s in a neighboring community, but even that idea (of exercising my seniority so that I can be transferred to a different school) doesn't look too promising. Hopefully next week I'll have some answers to that dilemma.
I say dilemma because that is really, truly what I face right now. I LOVE my job. And I mean LOVE it. I have never had a job that I am so passionate about. I never dread going to work. I like the people I work with. I feel valued and needed where I work. I have never received so much personal satisfaction from a job. Ever. Which is why it grieves me so much to lose my job. Before this, I had never been laid-off from a job. The job cut was not personal. It was a numbers game and I had the wrong number. But I feel like some part of me has been lost as a result of my losing my job. It's a hard feeling to explain. I just wish I didn't feel this way. I feel lost. I do not know where to go from here and it's very unsettling.
Along with the stress of losing my job, I just found out that I will be short 22.5 hours to qualify for Employment Insurance after my job officially ends. Because I received a significant reduction in hours last year, I have not accumulated the 665 hours I need in order to get E.I. And the crazy thing is, I have "donated" time in excess of 22.5 hours to the school by staying late, arriving early, attending meetings and workshops, etc. But those are not insurable hours and insurable hours is what the government requires me to prove. Poor me.
Despite everything I have said regarding my job loss, I do know that God is in control and He must have a different plan for my life. I just don't know how or why that plan does not include my going to work where I do right now. The only other thing I know I would enjoy doing at this time in my life is baking and decorating cakes, and sewing baby receiving blankets and burp cloths. I don't know how that's going to be replacement income. But if I had a choice, and being an E.A. were not an option, that's what I'd choose to do. Bake and sew for profit.
7. Well, if you've made it this far . . . CONGRATULATIONS! This was a very long post, which could have been expanded into seven smaller posts, but you know me--I kind of enjoy getting off on a tangent every now and then. So, thanks for reading. And please keep me in your prayers as I seek God's will regarding my employment status.