Nerves of Steel?

Contrary to the title of this post, my nerves currently are not made of steel. Today at 1:00 p.m. I have a job interview at the school for what was/is my current job. I've apparently been subbing for myself since the first day of school, but honestly, I won't believe it until I receive confirmation from the Principal, Vice Principal or school board administration that I've been officially hired back for my position.

The resource teacher at our school, who, by the way is essentially one of my bosses, assures me that my job is in tact and that this interview is simply a formality.

But the un-trusting, negative, doom-and-gloom part of me says otherwise. There are many people after this job. And despite the fact that I previously held the position, the fact remains that I have no formal training for my position. Life experience, yes. A recognized, certified education, no. And that's the part that's bothering me.

This will be my fourth interview with this school division. My previous interview landed me a job. The first and second interviews resulted in my being added to the substitute list, and following that, a big, fat, "No, you didn't get the job because you have no formal education in this area."

Having said that, you may understand why I may be concerned about my job security.
Off the record, my personal opinion on this matter is that there are some E.A.'s in this world that, while they have the formal education and book knowledge for their jobs, they do not possess the people skills required to fulfill their duties properly.

That's not to say I am perfect at my job. I'm not. But for what duties I've performed over the past 2 years as a sub or an E.A. with an authentic position, I have not lacked any skills that the position has required.

So anyways, I'm a nervous wreck right now and I wish it were already 3:00 p.m. because then I'd know what the next ten months of my life were going to look like.

I'll keep you posted.